I am a Mormon. I am a Mormon woman. I am a single-mother Mormon woman in law school. I am a single-mother devout-Mormon woman in law school.
I love my faith. I have tested my faith. I know God lives, and I know God loves me–and each and every one of us. I cherish both the Bible and the Book of Mormon. They both testify and teach of Jesus Christ.
Many Mormon women are aching for a fuller understanding of their place in God’s plan. Please don’t read more into it than that regarding my perspective, because I honestly don’t know what it is I am aching for. I just know I am desiring more knowledge, more understanding, more peace. This is not new among the women, but I have certainly seen a lot more activity and discussion among ourselves recently, and some discussion more openly.
I want to understand more, I want to feel like I am fulfilling my role and my potential more.
I also want to be in tune with the Spirit, to be guided by the Spirit, to be filled with a spirit of love while I am yet seeking. So, I have decided upon my own plan.
It is a three-pronged plan.
1. I will rededicate my personal scripture study–more consistent, more focused. This prong will, itself, have two dimensions. Naturally, I will pay attention to what the scriptures have to say about women. But, I will also read the scriptures for what they have to say in all their depth and beauty and wisdom. Perhaps, I will share favorite finds on this blog. I don’t know.
2. I will rededicate my regular Fast Sunday fasts (first Sundays) and my personal daily prayer.
I begin with the above two items because I can hardly ask for greater understanding if I am not using fully that which I have already been given.
3. I will institute a personal Third-Sunday Fast specifically dedicated to understanding my role as a woman in the gospel of Jesus Christ and, yes, asking that we all may be blessed with greater understanding and fulfillment. I will specifically focus on this not being my will or my ideas, but listening and, hopefully, learning.
Are there many other important issues in the world? Yes. But, this is my personal project, for me, for now.
This is a new direction for a blog I once kept here, and I no longer have readers. But, feel free to join me on this journey and heavenly petition, if you happen to read this post and have the desire.